Thursday, August 11, 2005
{ 5:54 AM }
i'm so so so scared. i dunt noe y..bt i juz feel so scared..it's juz a feeling i dunt noe how tuu xplain. i guess i'm hafing severe mood swing NOW. i got angrie wib my mom at first. she was irritating okies? kip calling me do this dhen do tt..i'm fustrated okies?? later she saed i was selfish cuz i off the fan..she oso okies? cuz i was angry she took the fan all tuu herself wat..sho i off it lor..hahaas..u cn sae i'm mad larz..dhen i got angry wib my damn maid. sho idiotic cans? i juz wanna eat fried rice tml morning. i mean bring it tuu skul larz..dhen she came in n "scolded" me. got me intuu trouble lorx..told me mom i didnt eat tomatoes. idiot. n btw..i HATE tomatoes. hahaas..dhen i saw joy online.."she" suddenli appear offline le..i guess maeb "she's" hiding away frm me bahz..i'm irritating..i'm an idiot n i sux okies..went tuu library tudae. i suppose tuu stay baq for tt zhong zheng jing shen jiang presentation..bt cant i wanna go lorx..haiz..cant(so sorrie ppl..i disappointed all of u..i'm a suxer larz..)..sho instead i went library..dhen later when popular tuu buy tt flixi ruler. ran dere de okies? cuz me mom n aunt waiting for us in the taxi stand wat..bought pens(: hahaas..dere was this pen which cant b used..i was fed up, sho went tuu buy one more same kind pen lorx..tml haf maths ct, i vv scared. i wonder if i'm scared of this instead? WHAT AM I SCARED OF?? i dunt noe..i HATE thursdaes..sho busy n tiring. haf tuu prepare for ct, dhen prepare uniform, polish badges n boots, arrange badges(btw, i alwaes arrange wai on side de). sho tiring. tml still haf tuu carry all those thing dere u noe?? i hate it. how i wish this 5 dae week wasnt inplemented. grrr..stressed up. sumore got pt..tired. i hope i juz haf sum kinda cramps n dhen i cn fall out. yippee~ bt tt's in my dreams.i tell u, my life is so so so screwed up. now i wished i didnt join uniform grp liaos..bt on second tots, npcc ish damn fun okies? muz endure...tudae i found a new line i lurve: i lurve u forever n ever amen. sho sweet..like u r pray tuu the lord so that he'll bless u all tu be tugether forever. sho sweet. walao..i HATE my parents..i hate myself. i hate the way i'm made..the way my hair ishh..the way my nose ishh..the way my mouth ish..most importantli, i hate myself. my life. I SUX.